Sorry

Lately, it has come to my attention that I apologize and then try to justify most of what I do. Whether the action requires an apology or not, some form of one comes out. If no apology, I feel bad and most definitely bring up some kind of excuse or justification. For instance, in dropping my son off at the babysitter's, I told her I brought his stuffed dog with him. She stated it was no problem, she has plenty of toys and he'll be fine. I then immediately gave out the bashful sigh/laugh and started saying how, "Oh, I know, but this way he has something familiar in case...[blah blah blah]." Wow. Am I so paranoid about others opinions that I don't even trust my own judgement? I have come so far in not caring what people think and not striving for their approval. Now, however, I find myself not wanting to impress necessarily, but to....not be misunderstood? I don't know. I still firmly believe that if they don't like me, it's their loss, but this new need for understanding or whatever it is is most definitely very confusing. Do I say this is all spiritual growth? Or do I blame it on the pregnancy hormones? All I know that I can do is pray about it.